Monday, March 31, 2008

ME, rats, & chemicals.

Hi Michelle…

Thanks very much for taking the trouble to write. Sorry to hear that you too are bothered by ME.
I'm also sorry to hear you come into contact with rats.

Being on a farm it’s inevitable that we should be in second-hand contact with the dreaded rat. They pee on things, and leave no visible trace.
I don't think my own case is connected to rats though. When I was first diagnosed, they ran a lot of tests for things like brucellosis and Weill's disease and they all showed a negative. But who knows…
The chemicals may have been contributory, however. Anne, my wife, strongly suspects so, at least. Our smallholding is organic, but when we were keeping sheep we needed to obey the law of the land and dip the poor beasts. Sheep dip derives from chemicals developed as nerve gas, and I was not best protected from it. (I go into this a bit more in 'Scenes'.)

I think my own case probably followed the classic path of nervous exhaustion followed by a flu virus. The exhaustion lowered my defences, and thus the flu got a deeper grip than it should have. So it seems, anyway… but illness is a very strange business. Nothing would surprise me.

Thanks very much for the hospital tip. I think I'm so much improved however, that I would only be wasting precious time in seeking treatment now.

For what it's worth, I think a strongly positive mental attitude is one's best ally against the debilitation ME brings. This doesn't mean railing and forcing yourself, but relaxing, accepting, and doing what is possible and worthwhile, in a gentle and attentive manner. I guess a Buddhist would put it more elegantly, but that's near enough!
More and more, since my own experiences, I'm drawn to the feeling that ME is Nature's way of drawing one's attention to the way we are living our lives, and encouraging purposeful introspection, as in Socrates' famous saying that 'a life unexamined is a life not worth living'. I can see what he meant now, whereas I don't think I did before I got ill.
For me, the resolution is summed up in the phrase 'I am a human being, not a human doing'. This sounds very trite and Christmas-crackery, but deep within it, it contains what I now think is a very deep and valuable truth.

Thanks again for writing. Have a great day.. and try to keep away from rats!
All best wishes Chas

Friday, March 28, 2008

A few comments on M.E.

It's come back again this afternoon, out of the blue. No apparent cause. No warning.
I'd been active in the morning, hacking and lifting some pretty heavy matted ivy off the yard, and carrying poles and posts around, and sawing a bit of firewood. But nothing excessive.
Soup and apples for lunch, as per usual.
Had a half hour sit, reading an old paper.
Went out to join Anne in sorting boxes of apples, as arranged. The apples have been over-wintering in the packhouse, and many of them have either begun to rot, or have been nibbled and destroyed by voles, or rats, or something. We wore latex gloves to protect against Weill's disease, carried by rat piss.
I carried a few tubs of damaged fruit to the compost heap, then suddenly felt weak and incapable. I recognised it as the M.E. paying a visit.
It's not like ordinary tiredness, or even ordinary exhaustion. I feel my energy just draining away, and I'm left in a sort of limbo. Not tired enough to sleep, but not awake enough to actually do anything. Physical work just seems impossible, especially if it requires attention or judgement. I'm likely to make mistakes and make silly decisions. I don't handle sharp tools at times like this.
If it's a bad bout, I can barely read. Well, I can read the words, but they don't make much sense. At the moment I'm reading a book called 'The Essence of the Gnostics'. It's not a particularly difficult book, but you need to be alert to cope with the ideas. No point in trying to read this now! I'd simply be wasting my time.
And I'm not alert enough to try the general knowledge crossword. I look at the clues and note that some of them I don't properly understand, although they're not in code or cryptic: just straightforward questions. Other clues I do understand, but I'm aware that although I know I know the answers, I also know that the answers will not be delivered up to me. My recall is on go-slow.
It's as if there's a sort of blind been half-drawn between my mind and me. Or should that be 'my Mind' and 'Me'? Yes, I think so. Or 'my brain' and 'Me'? Mmmm…
Nothing feels right. I have an overwhelming feeling that I ought to eat something that will make everything all right. From previous bouts I recognise that this is a snare. I find myself eating nuts or sweet things. Sometimes muesli. But nothing works. Sometimes a shot of scotch will do the trick, but it's not my favoured remedy, as I know it's only short-term, and if I have more than two shots I'll pay for it later by feeling extra drowsy in the evening or worse, waking up in the middle of the night, with a pounding heart and then be unable to get back to sleep for at least an hour. And quite often it only makes things worse, right from the start.
No.. nothing works. But all the time there is this powerful urge to seek out the magic mouthful that will bring energy and relief from the woozy fog within. It's very hard to resist. So I've just had two sticky bars. No.. they didn't help. Now I just feel stickied up and guilty too, as my weight has gone up again recently despite my previous triumph of losing three stone.
I wonder about picking up the 'Pickwick Papers', which I started last week… but I can't be bothered with it. This is no reflection upon the book, but upon the fact that I don't enjoy fiction much any more, not even now, when I can't read a 'proper book'.
This is another irritating effect of this sort of attack of 'M.E. Lite': a feeling of frustration that I can't be getting on with something worthwhile or meaningful.
So what to do?
Play my guitar? No.. don't be silly. You don't have the strength or focus (you know this from previous experience) and no inspiration will be forthcoming. You'll just scratch away at a few chords, but it will be unimaginative and unfulfilling: just more frustration.
Listen to a bit of music: 'Yes, but…'
'Yes but' is a very common reaction to all suggestions when the M.E. strikes. Nothing is quite right. Nothing will hit the spot. Not food. Not reading. Certainly not creativity.
Alright, let's try listening to some music.
My musical taste are pretty catholic, so I riffle through the CD's to find the right thing. Unsurprisingly, nothing seems to hit the right note. Lively or quiet? A sampler of African music picked up in Oxfam yesterday? No.. too… I dunno… too 'in yer face'. So what about the Schubert string quintet, also from Oxfam? OK… let's try it.
Yes, it's fine, but I feel myself being picky. Isn't that cello just a bit strident? And suddenly the whole piece seems to be merely trying for effect, whatever that means.

The good news is that this is just a mild bout, and I can be pretty sure that it will pass in a few days. It might even have gone by morning, as suddenly and mysteriously as it arrived.
If it were as severe as when I first 'caught' it, I'd be lying in bed feeling just completely bloody awful (a medical term). Curiously, though, I wouldn't be feeling frustrated, as I am at the moment, because I would know I was properly ill, and doing anything other than Lying in Bed Being Ill would not appear on the horizon.
The other good thing is that there is no pain, or any other symptom other than debilitation, associated with the sort of M.E. I get. I just need to ride it out, and smile.
So.. I smile, and ride it out.
It's a damn nuisance to Anne, of course. She's just come in after sorting all the rest of the apples herself. It took her a couple of hours. I could have saved her a lot of effort.
No.. no I couldn't. And that's that.

I wish I could pin down what brings these bouts on. Anne is very good at spotting trends and possible causes, but it's defeated even her over the past twenty-plus years. It comes. It hangs around. It goes.

I'm continuing this the following morning…because lo! The M.E. has retreated again. How? Why? No idea. But at the moment, 8.30 am, I'm feeling fine. A bit sleepy but not ME-ish. How do I know this? I cast my attention around my head, and can feel that the fog has shifted. I'm not positively thinking when I do this casting around; just sending a little shaft of focus around my brain. But somehow I can tell that it has turned up for work again.

Strangely, I sometimes have a feeling of gratitude associated with the M.E. For a start, all I get is exhausted. Some people have terrible headaches or joint pains, and heaven knows what else. This of course leads one to wonder what on earth 'M.E.' is, if it can present in so many different ways. Personally, I think it's just a name made up in desperation by the medics, as a great big blanket to throw over a raft of oddball issues they can't cope with. Thus, perhaps, you really can say that 'M.E' doesn't exist. The effects definitely do exist though, so perhaps what we need is a more careful analysis of the symptoms and a careful re-naming session or two.
Mainly, though, what we need is some sort of understanding of what brings it on.

This gratitude also shows up when I realise that I am currently much better that I have been for twenty years. These days I actually expect to be able to put in a half day's work, most days. I can mow the lawn, saw firewood, and help Anne to beat back the encroachments of Nature. This takes a bit of the work off her, and some of the responsibility, too. She has her own problems and needs all the help she can get. So I'm glad I can do a bit more.

I'm grateful too in an unexpected way. Before the M.E. arrived I was flogging away at all hours, growing top notch veg for an uncaring society, as represented by Tesco and Sainsbury, who paid rock bottom prices for top quality goods. We were pretty well trapped in this unwholesome relationship (I go into more detail of how this trap works in 'Scenes from a Smallholding'.) Was the illness a sort of breakdown brought on by overwork and stress? I think there may be some truth in this.
Anyway… once I'd got over the worst of the exhaustion, I began to read again, for the first time in many years. I remember deciding to read the hardest things I could, to keep my mind alive. This meant, to start with, Colin Wilson and Lyall Watson: books about anomalous events, and sheer weirdnesses, written by responsible writers. This led on to a decision to try to find out what Religion was all about, and why Science wouldn't speak to it. Any why, for heaven's sake, would Science not even talk to psychical researchers? That was ridiculous to my eyes.
So I did a lot of reading on science, religions, psychology, history, psychical research, philosophy, mythology, and anything else I thought might offer an insight.
And I'm very glad I did. I now feel more than a little wiser. In fact… I'm grateful to the M.E. for giving me the time to read and think.

Odd, eh?
And, of course, I'm grateful to the M.E. for making it possible to write my books. If I'd been growing veg all day every day, for peanuts, I could never have found the time to write anything.

It's a mysterious universe, don't you think? 'Grateful for being exhausted'!

I guess it's an example of clouds and silver linings.

Right. So. The M.E. has buggered off again, for which I'm truly thankful today. In fact, I'm grateful for it.
Now let's lift some more of that ivy, and saw a bit more firewood..

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Brains and Mindsets and so on..

Hi Duke...

Good to hear from you. Sounds like you're having fun with this one!
I'll interpolate my responses into your own text:


Hi Chas,
thanks once again for your posts, they really have switched on the old brain box and i find im finally looking into some of the ideas ive so far only vaguely held.

Here goes, ive been looking at your first post and starting at the beginning... "If Life arose spontaneously from un-alive chemicals (Matter/Energy), where did the Life in the living form come from? It MUST have been present (as some form of potential) within those un-alive chemicals, must it not?"

ok, my question is why does Life have to be present as a potential within un-alive chemicals? can't life be a product of the physical conditions which allow it to exist?


My point still stands:
Physical stuff certainly does provide the framework or 'conditions' within which Life operates, or is 'allowed to exist', as you put it, but where does this Life come from before it is 'allowed to exist' somewhere?
It always reduces to two choices: either from outside physical stuff, or from within it. There is no third option. There just ain't.
If it comes from outside physical stuff, then Materialism is immediately and straightforwardly wrong, is it not? So, for Materialism to hold, the ONLY alternative is that Life must somehow lie within 'unalive' physical stuff: and thus we're back to the paradox of something being both A and not-A at the same time; and 'paradox' means 'contradiction'; and 'contradiction' means 'non-sense'. Thus Materialism is, literally, non-sense.

This simple either/or split between Materialism and Idealism is a tricky one to come to terms with for most people (and boy, do some people kick and scream at the very idea of it!), and was certainly very challenging for me for a long time until I discovered that there IS a sort of third option, which seems to me to be logical and to thus make sense, albeit in a most unexpected way. Here goes:


Yogis (and similar) maintain that every particle of matter and quantum of energy in the universe is actually alive, each in its own way, with each being an expression of a life force of some sort as, for example, a daffodil is an expression of a daffodil-life-force. There are hierarchies of life forces, which somehow cooperate with other levels to allow for more and greater complexification of life forms (for example, what we call 'species').

This is, of course, an Idealist understanding, but it has the unexpected and welcome advantage of seeming to provide a reasonable (but not Materialistic) mechanism for how particles and quanta can apparently spontaneously produce Life: ie, they don't produce it, but express it, every single particle, in immensely complex combinations, from nucleons to elephants.
This 'third way' would also explain the mystery of how, say, a human body maintains its cohesion until the moment of death, when that cohesion immediately begins to fall apart. Creatures low in the hierarchy, like the billions of bacteria which digest our food for us, and the trillions of cells (those 'little lives' which allow DNA to do its stuff) which once made up the body of the Being-in-Charge (ie, the highest in the local hierarchy... that's you and me!) are suddenly released to behave freely and thus devour the flesh they once either served or were repelled from by the various immune systems, or to simply die, while the Being-in-Charge, who was until recently the life force that unified all the lower entities into its own service, abandons the body and pushes off to pastures new.

I can find no logical flaw in this idea. It is just unexpected, not illogical.
And the fact that it could explain so many observed facts-in-the-world inclines me towards investigating it further.
The implications of this idea are huge... reincarnation, for example, would no longer be 'outlawed'. Nor would ghosts, etc, which millions of people have reported seeing over the centuries, but which Materialism can not accept at any price.
It also raises all sorts of questions concerning God/ gods/ godlets/ buddhas/ intelligences/ dimensions etc
All big subjects...... no room here.



What im thinking of as an example would be human thought, allowable because of the way the human brain is.

Always the same problem: how can unalive and unintelligent matter (brain) produce alive and intelligent thought (mind)... unless this same unalive and unintelligent matter somehow contains Life and Intelligence within itself in the first place? This paradox ('non-sense') crops up at every Materialist corner.
And if this 'brain' is so clever as to come up with things like E=mc2 and Hamlet, why is not smart enough to stop itself from dissolving into goo the moment a person dies?
The reason most scientists are sure that brain produces thought (and spontaneously, at that!... quite an achievement for something that is made up of unalive chemicals) is that they have raised the unproved Materialist hypothesis up to the level of Proved Truth….. as has almost everyone else in society, thanks to the unquestioning acceptance of scientists' pronouncements by journalist-popularisers of science, and school teachers.
In elevating this unproved hypothesis from the status of 'possible explanation' to 'dogmatic truth', science has entered a cul-de-sac and locked the gate behind it. It is a very brave scientist indeed who dares to question the sanctity of Scientific Materialism.

The fact that the brain uses chemicals and electric pulses does NOT automatically prove that these physical artefacts produce thoughts. You might just as reasonably claim that the thoughts produce the pulses, which is, as I hope I've made clear, the only way round that makes logical sense.

So… if unalive chemical goo and electric pulses do not spontaneously generate thought from within their own unalive natures.. well.. where do these thoughts come from? Same old question, and the same old answer: 'somewhere else'. Thus, again, Materialism does not hold.
Where this 'somewhere else' might be is an entirely different question, to be explored once this preliminary either/or issue has been clearly thought through and understood.

I hope you understand, to follow your logic through your argument i need to agree with your statements along the way. So thats why im hanging around at the beginning

Absolutely! You are absolutely right to do this. Take nobody's word for it!
Everything hangs on that basic either/or, right at the beginning. Once you can accept the logic of the analysis I make (which you 'must' do if you can't fault the logic after carefully testing it yourself) then you can move on to the enthralling task of trying to make real sense of the universe. The key to all of this is to test that logical either/or as carefully and rigorously as you can.
Once you have satisfied yourself that YOU can't fault the logic of the case I'm presenting, and that YOU now have a trustworthy base to work from, all manner of unexpected things will begin to fall into place.
Conversely, if you can't be bothered to put in the effort to rigorously test my logic until you can HONESTLY accept it as your own.. then you will continue to be baffled and dispirited by the world, and especially by the bombastic pronouncements of Great Scientists!

Speaking of which, I was interested to see that Stephen Hawking has recently decided that the Grand Theory of Everything may take 'a little longer' than he had been anticipating. It's satisfying to see him tending just a little bit towards my prediction (last blog?) that this GTE will never be achieved. Thanks for your tentative support, Mr Hawking!

Is all this any help, Duke?
The issue is actually very simple... just unexpected! …because nobody at school or university ever seems to question scientists' certainty that Materialism is Truth.
Why not? Seriously... 'why not?'
I think it's because Science now wields the same power over society and how we think, that the Church once did... but that, again, is another story...

Please come back again if you wish. All good clean fun.


Jehovahs Witnesses : I too have been happy to think of them as trying to do me a good deed in their missionary, in fact half my family are practising JW's, quite liberal ones really, my Mum still expects Xmas presents. I think my anxieties with them were more about me not knowing enough about 'what' i thought i believed. I think this discussion has set me off on a path to sorting that out.

Yes... 'belief' is the enemy of 'understanding'.

There are three grades of 'mindset', for want of a better word:
1 Belief: unquestioning, comforting (or terrifying, depending), irrational, simple, often paradoxical, unquestionable, dogmatic, passed down by others.
2 Understanding: rational, logical, testable, non-paradoxical, intricate, non-dogmatic, worked out for oneself.
3 Direct knowledge: delivered directly to one by one's Intuition. (That sentence bears close examination for its implications, if it interests you). This is too big a subject to examine here. Suffice it to say that when you KNOW, you know. Eg, on an elementary level… you don't need an argument or a 'belief' or logic to 'know' that you're happy, or bereft, or hungry, do you? Intuition can deliver much more than this.
You and I, Duke, have either shaken off or are currently shaking off the Belief stage, and are learning to operate in the Understanding stage. Sooner or later, Intuition and Direct Knowledge begin to kick in... connections suddenly appear, light-bulb moments shine out, and pennies drop... stuff like that. They did for me, anyway, and I'm sure they will for you and for anybody else who's interested enough to give Understanding a bash instead of relying on the second-hand and jumbled mish-mash of 'Belief' that's been ladled into them since birth.

Something ive found really interesting is how doing a bit of research on what you've talked about has revealed my own belief 'prejudices' i guess you could call it. I read a book by Lewis Wolpert once were he talked about people hanging onto their beliefs, being prejudiced against new/other beliefs because its hard to let go of ours when we've invested so much work into them (he said its a hard wired survival thing). For instance i find i will happily search for errors or try to disprove an idea that contradicts my beliefs but dont try to do disprove what i already hold to be true. This seems like a weakness to me and im sure you've something to say about it (if any of that makes sense!)

Absolutely right again, Duke! You clearly mean business!
We are all victims of our upbringing, both in our social habits, and much more importantly, in our mental habits. We are most unlikely to have ever been taught how to think clearly, so most of us never do, and instead, we cling to our 'beliefs' as desperately as a drowning man does to a life belt, and thus remain just as confused and baffled as our parents and teachers were.
Until we realise we can do better, we waste no end of time arguing, and defending our 'beliefs'. What a pointless waste of life!
Why? Because a belief is not a fact. It's vague and ill-informed mish-mash, masquerading as a personal philosophy of some sort. It's rubbish, in other words, and there is no point whatsoever in defending it.
Beliefs are the enemy of clarity and progress. Chuck 'em out, says I, every one of them. Start afresh. Don't be frightened. The sky won't fall on you and you will probably feel yourself immediately rejuvenated.

The hard bit is to winkle out what our deeply held 'beliefs' actually are! But it's a job that needs doing and is a lot of fun. I found it so, at least. I was amazed at how much mental and emotional rubbish I was carrying around.

I'm glad Mr Wolpert pointed all that out to you. It's a shame he hasn't yet practised what he preaches, and looked within to examine his own 'beliefs'. He's another dogmatic Materialist, like Mr Dawkins, who has clearly never questioned his 'Truth'. Pity.


Anyway thats it for now.

Cheerio, Duke


Cheerio, Duke. Happy thinking!

Saturday, March 08, 2008

On Darwin and Witnesses

Thanks for your note, Duke. I'm looking forward to your comments.. but please restrict them to issues of logic, as I have. Discussions about virgin births, miracles, evolution, etc, really do seem like a waste of time to me. Much better to get to the heart of things, which is what I hope I've done with that simple little piece of logic.
Once one has accepted, by following the principles of logic, that Materialism is fatally flawed, then one must accept that Idealism of some sort must be 'True'. Then you can start digging deeper. That's what I did, anyway, and got surprisingly far.

On the question of the origin of life, do you remember (from the footnote in 'Scenes') that Darwin mentions 'The Creator' in all editions of 'Origin of Species' but the first? I'll quote the footnote in full, for the benefit of anyone else who reads this who might find it of interest…

*Quote: 'I may here premise, that I have nothing to do with the origin of the mental powers, any more than I have with that of life itself.' Charles Darwin: second sentence, Chapter 8, sixth (final and therefore definitive) edition of 'The Origin of Species'. Does this quotation surprise you at all? If it does, I wonder why? Might you have been previously misled?
And just for the record, Darwin mentions 'the Creator' (yes, with a capital), nine times in the final edition of 'Origins'. Check it yourself. But make sure you are reading the '6th, final' edition. There has been a recent flurry of re-prints of the first edition, the only one which does not mention 'the Creator'. Now why would anyone want to re-print the first and not the last edition?

(A quick test: turn to the last page of your copy of 'Origins'. If the last sentence, ie, the very last sentence of the whole world-shattering book, contains the phrase 'There is grandeur in this view of life, with its several powers, having been originally breathed by the Creator …', then you have almost certainly got the 6th, final edition.. ie, Darwin's final thoughts on the whole matter of Evolution. If, on the either hand that sentence does not mention 'the Creator' you are holding a modern re-print of the first edition. I repeat.. why would anybody print Darwin's first thoughts on the matter, and not his final thoughts? And why would the editor not tell us that he'd done this? In other words, why is Darwin being systematically misrepresented in this matter? Write to Mr Dawkins and ask him!)


I used to find Jehovah Witnesses annoying, as I think you do, until I realised the simple truth that these people were going out of their way to do me what they considered to be a good turn. They were being kind! Me being ratty at them was no sort of way to respond to kindness!
Now I just thank them (quite genuinely) for their kindness and concern for me, and tell them I'm very happy with my own understanding of the universe. We part on very good terms, and quite right too.
I don't think you'll ever get anywhere engaging Witnesses in rational debate. They are driven by belief and not reason. They simply won't hear what you are trying to clarify, and can only give pre-packed answers, as will most other belief-people, who take their rules and paradigms en masse from a book. Reason-people are quite rare in the religious world, and are most likely, it seems to me, to be found among Buddhists.
But that's another story, eh!

Have a great weekend, Duke.

On Darwin and Witnesses

Thanks for your note, Duke. I'm looking forward to your comments.. but please restrict them to issues of logic, as I have. Discussions about virgin births, miracles, evolution, etc, really do seem like a waste of time to me. Much better to get to the heart of things, which is what I hope I've done with that simple little piece of logic.
Once one has accepted, by following the principles of logic, that Materialism is fatally flawed, then one must accept that Idealism of some sort must be 'True'. Then you can start digging deeper. That's what I did, anyway, and got surprisingly far.

On the question of the origin of life, do you remember (from the footnote in 'Scenes') that Darwin mentions 'The Creator' in all editions of 'Origin of Species' but the first? I'll quote the footnote in full, for the benefit of anyone else who reads this who might find it of interest…

*Quote: 'I may here premise, that I have nothing to do with the origin of the mental powers, any more than I have with that of life itself.' Charles Darwin: second sentence, Chapter 8, sixth (final and therefore definitive) edition of 'The Origin of Species'. Does this quotation surprise you at all? If it does, I wonder why? Might you have been previously misled?
And just for the record, Darwin mentions 'the Creator' (yes, with a capital), nine times in the final edition of 'Origins'. Check it yourself. But make sure you are reading the '6th, final' edition. There has been a recent flurry of re-prints of the first edition, the only one which does not mention 'the Creator'. Now why would anyone want to re-print the first and not the last edition?

(A quick test: turn to the last page of your copy of 'Origins'. If the last sentence, ie, the very last sentence of the whole world-shattering book, contains the phrase 'There is grandeur in this view of life, with its several powers, having been originally breathed by the Creator …', then you have almost certainly got the 6th, final edition.. ie, Darwin's final thoughts on the whole matter of Evolution. If, on the either hand that sentence does not mention 'the Creator' you are holding a modern re-print of the first edition. I repeat.. why would anybody print Darwin's first thoughts on the matter, and not his final thoughts? And why would the editor not tell us that he'd done this? In other words, why is Darwin being systematically misrepresented in this matter? Write to Mr Dawkins and ask him!)


I used to find Jehovah Witnesses annoying, as I think you do, until I realised the simple truth that these people were going out of their way to do me what they considered to be a good turn. They were being kind! Me being ratty at them was no sort of way to respond to kindness!
Now I just thank them (quite genuinely) for their kindness and concern for me, and tell them I'm very happy with my own understanding of the universe. We part on very good terms, and quite right too.
I don't think you'll ever get anywhere engaging Witnesses in rational debate. They are driven by belief and not reason. They simply won't hear what you are trying to clarify, and can only give pre-packed answers, as will most other belief-people, who take their rules and paradigms en masse from a book. Reason-people are quite rare in the religious world, and are most likely, it seems to me, to be found among Buddhists.
But that's another story, eh!

Have a great weekend, Duke.

Friday, March 07, 2008

Postscript

The piece I wrote about God/no-God the either day continues to exercise my mind.
I was brought up as a 'Scientist', which means, although I didn't realise it at the time, as a 'Materialist'. As a youth, I didn't realise there was a clear distinction to be made between the two terms, and nobody ever thought to explain it all to me, because nobody had ever explained it all to them.. and so on.
I imagine that a lot of the people who read this will have had the same experience. It is an unfortunate truth that to society in general 'Science' means 'Materialism', and this lies at the root of many of society's ills, it seems to me.
Everything from drug abuse to road rage, right through to pollution and global warming can be reduced to the same root cause: lack of respect.. for ourselves, for each other, and for the planet itself.
Why do we lack respect? Because we are constantly told by Science (via people like Richard Dawkins, and all of the media's 'science correspondents') that everything happened by chance and accident, from the Big Bang onwards, right through to Self-Consciousness. Thus, nothing can possibly have a fundamental or transcendental purpose as the universe itself is purposeless. Thus, purpose has been replaced by gratification (and consumerism, as a logical extension). 'Greed is good', and the vapidity of Thatcher's 'There is no such thing as society' follows on naturally from this. We become more and more miserable, purposeless, and socially isolated from each other, despite all the extra money that politicians think will solve 'everything'.

Mr Dawkins quite rightly points out that much of what Religions tell us is nonsensical, or contradictory, but I wish he would take time out to look at the huge contradiction which lies buried at the heart of his own philosophy (which I wrote about in that previous blog entry). It is this paradox ('How can Life arise spontaneously from solely non-alive Matter/Energy, which does not itself contain the potential essence of Life in some form?') which makes Materialism a fallacy, and I can find no rational resolution to this. I've tried very hard to falsify my own logic, and can't do it; I've asked a number of intelligent (and sceptical) friends to find the flaw, and they can't either. Perhaps you, dear reader, can find the flaw. Please let me know! (But only if you have found a flaw in my own logic; I'm not interested in other theories or expectations. See below…)

Meanwhile, it seems to me that every other argument and dispute about God/no-God, (ie, Idealism/Materialism), becomes unnecessary and a ground for misunderstanding and confusion. People have argued for centuries and clearly haven't solved the issue, or we'd all know about it by now.
To me, it's all a waste of time. What matters is the simple piece of logic I point out above and elsewhere.
For an opinion or argument in these matters to have any validity, it must cope with this simple logical challenge, and must either find a flaw in my logic, or accept the conclusion that Materialism is not a valid philosophy, and that thus Idealism (in some from or other, as yet undecided) must therefore be valid.

The implication arising from this is that Religions, for all their funny little ways and occasional gross abuses of humanity and reason, must, at heart, have something to be said for them. I've spent several years looking into all this, and I reckon I've found the solution. It's there for you to find too, if you have the patience, and the will to think clearly as you go!
As I said before, I'm working on a book which will explain what I mean.

Hey, Dook.. what do you make of all this?